About Me

I’m Loz, I’m 38 (holy shit that’s nearly 40!), I’m married to Mr W, and have a daughter, H, and a grown up step-son, T. Obviously they have longer names than that, we’re not american, but I’m trying to keep a teensy bit of privacy due to the candid content of some of my posts.

So, me. I’m a pretty hardcore geek – Doctor Who, Supernatural, Harry Potter, Game of Thrones, Star Trek, Firefly, Sherlock, Walking Dead…. I could go on but you get the idea; I obsess about all of them.

Also, I swear. A lot. I’ll try to keep it to a minimum… actually who am I kidding, there will be swearing. If it offends you you’re almost definitely in the wrong place.

I’m owned by 5, yes 5, cats. Crazy cat lady alert! Their names, because they don’t need their privacy protecting, are Tinkerbell, Ooojit, Wotsit, Hagrid & Georgie. We also had a big black Labrador called Dublin until he went to the rainbow bridge January 2016. We miss him a lot.

I’m pretty creative. Mr W & I make all sorts of weird & wonderful stuff, geeky, steampunk, bad taste! It keeps us out of mischief when the bodies aren’t working.

And of course, the main reason I’m doing this warts & all gander through my life, I have heart failure. I was diagnosed August 3rd 2016, and it was literally the end of one life, and the beginning of another.

I thought I had a chest infection. I was so utterly convinced I had a chest infection I refused to go to the doctors. And it nearly killed me. I finally went to the doctors when Mr W & my closest friend N nagged me too much, and he sent me to get tested for a suspected blood clot. It wasn’t. I was in acute heart failure & could at any point have given up the ghost. But I didn’t, I’m still here, and now I’m fighting. Fighting to stay, fighting to lose weight, and fighting to get my heart into better order. When I was admitted into hospital I weighed 189kgs. I weigh less now, and will hopefully continue to weigh less as time goes on

When I left hospital I was told to keep a diary, to help to log health, feelings, get out things I wouldn’t normally say to anyone. The blog posts up until 19/12/2016 are my diary entries. Anything dated past that came straight on t’interweb.

In other health related news, just because I may mention it in posts; I have 2 prolapsed spinal disks crushing the nerves down my right leg giving permanant sciatic pain, and very little in the way of knees due to a nasty little bugger called psoriatic arthritis. Yes, it hurts, yes, it makes getting about very difficult, and yes, I’m fighting it.

Anyway, have a look around, a read of my posts. Hopefully some of it will make you laugh, and some of it will make you think, but if it means even one person knows what heart failure looks like so they don’t wait as long as I did to get treated the site will have done its job.


Mr W on Loz:

My total soulmate. Literally the woman I’d waited a lifetime to meet. Fiercely loyal, like a pit bull but with nice hair. A beautiful smile which holds a huge power over me. It makes my heart melt She doesn’t know this, (well she does now) if she smiled at me during any of our (admittedly rare) arguments I’d forfeit. She’d win.

Stubborn like you wouldn’t believe but we’re working on that. This heart business has shown, to me anyway that stubborn can kill. That said she is replaced the missing bloody mindedness with a determination that is inspiring. I am convinced that people, consciously or not, will learn something from this blog.

She’s very crafty. Not like a fox. More like someone with a broken leg is crafty. She makes things. Often very beautiful things. You wanna see our sheds…..

An incredibly good shot which allied to the bloody mindedness is a pretty dangerous combination. An archer and a rifle shooter but most definitely not darts. She’s awful at darts in fact. Darts and pool. Shes a big girl in many ways. Big smile, big laugh, tall, big personality, big bum. But getting smaller, losing weight nice and steady by eating the right stuff. Not exercising yet due to aforesaid health challenges but that’ll come. Considering a tandem. Possibly with stabilisers.

All in all that’s Loz. I think shes the most beautiful woman in the world, inside and out.

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6 thoughts on “About Me

  1. I too have heart failure, mostly feeling knackered but now a new kind of life. Love your diary. Makes me smile but at the same time realise the efforts you are making. I am Jan, live in Bakewell. Stay in touch. Very best wishes.xx


    1. Hi Jan
      Thank you for your comment, I’m sorry to hear of your troubles, I hope your new kind of life brings a different sort of fulfilment for you. Bakewell is a beautiful place, though I’ve only been once.

      If you’d like to keep in contact, feel free to join my page on facebook, always happy to talk to fellow hearties 🙂


      Best regards


  2. Nice to meet you Loz. I’m Jeanette, 54 and recently diagnosed with CHF – similar to you, thought I had a chest infection. Still having tests etc. and on meds. Work part time and have good/bad days xx


    1. Hi Jeannette

      Thank you for introducing yourself. It’s a shock to the system isn’t it to go from chest infection to heart condition isn’t it? I hope they can get you sorted so you have more good days than bad days. If you need to talk at any time, you can find me on facebook at https://www.facebook.com/porkerslament/

      Drop me a message any time, the more support we give each other, the easier this journey will be. ❤


  3. Wow! So good to find this blog and you guys on this day and this place in my HF-Time…! I’ll be checking in here on a regular basis… Stay strong – Rob


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